update i have trouble buying into a lot of the magic of the holidays, in fact it may be the opposite... earlier this week i realized that i actually spend some of my loneliest moments of the year on christmas day.

there is such build up in the days leading up to christmas morning in my family that i can't help but buy into it and let some of that anticipation take hold. weird person that i am, this anticipation always seems to lead to me spending the lonely moments that follow christmas morning moping in my room - kind of feeling foolish for having anticipated so much, knowing that all i would get out of it were a bunch of consumer products.

i don't know, i love christmas presents every bit as much as the next guy, but they always seem so vapid when i'm sitting alone in my room on christmas afternoon trying to figure out how and why they are supposed to mean so much.  ¶ 2:16 AM