unwanted intertia and its psychological ramifications
i'm finding it increasingly difficult to enjoy the lighter moments in my life as my current situation - indonesia and not being able to find a job there - skews my fundamental demeanor. i feel like i can't shake the deep-rooted agitation that i feel over that. people i meet ask me what i'm doing, friendships grow and also fade in reflection both of my intention to leave and my reality of staying. it frustrates me that i'm seemingly letting this temporary annoyance keep me from enjoying life the way that i know i should